Keep It Moving....

Happy Monday Monsters!!! Wow it is already the end of July. Time is flying by even though at times it feels like nothing is moving forward. I can totally feel the earth spinning under my feet sometimes when my day feels like it is in fast forward. At other times I feel like snails are zooming past me. It gets very frustrating when you have you so much you want to get done and nothing seems to be progressing. In the between, you feel like everyone and everything is moving forward, and you are at a standstill or worse in reverse. You are watching your friends zoom ahead in their careers, families, relationships, whatever and you have yet to pick out what shoe your going to wear today. It is like your coming in dead last in the race. You saw yourself so much further ahead in life then where you are now. losing

This is just an illusion monster. There is no race. You may be in a different place then where you thought. You might not be working fast enough to "keep up" with where you think you should be, but you are not losing. You, monster, are in the perfect place, at the perfect time, for you. In the Between you will learn about Divine timing. God's time is totally different from ours. He thinks in Eternity while we struggle with the Now. I want a career Now, I want a boyfriend Now, I want a baby Now, I want that promotion Now, I want the new house, car, life, money, etc. Now. You are looking around at everything and everybody else and saying why them and not me. They are getting theirs Now. Well monster you are not them and you don't know what they did, went through or experienced to get their Now. Your Now is coming, just not right now.

Sucks huh? I have always had a problem with patience. I am a go-getter. I like to keep it moving. If something is not working i fix it, discard it, or trade it in and I keep it moving. I was taught to go and get what I wanted. I was a Wonder Woman. I kicked butt and took names, and did not have to practice patience.

 Well in the Between you will find that your old way of doing things does not work. Hustle as hard as you want, you still will not get to the Next. I told you the Between is a character building workout. In life you can't do 10 sit-ups and get an instant six pack. You have to eat right, exercise daily, work out those muscles, throw in some cardio and earn your six pack. Same thing applies to building your Character. You have to get rid of bad habits, bad thinking, bad living and start building good habits, good thinking and Godly living. It is going to take time, and effort.

There is good news!!! You seriously didn't think I would leave you without any did you? No matter how long you may spend in the between, wandering in the wilderness, dealing with your mess God has a plan and a promise for you. You are not losing anything. You are gaining. And God has promised to Restore all that you have lost, better yet He will give you more than you lost, more than you dreamed or hoped. Joel 2:25
 ^"And I will restore to you the years that the locust hath eaten, the cankerworm, and the caterpiller, and the palmerworm," I know, it sounds crazy who was talking about worms anyway. Dig deeper, God will restore to you anything and everything that has been taken. Your job, your home, your relationship, your friendship, your children, your strength, your health, your joy, the list is endless. It does not matter how old you are, how young you are, where you are, God has promised restoration and not just replacement but more and better then what you lost. Joshua 24:13 "So I gave you a land on which you did not toil and cities you did not build; and you live in them and eat from vineyards and olive groves that you did not plant."


This means monster, that your life is not at a standstill. You are not losing, it is never too late and  you have no expiration date. He will open doors for you and you will be able to walk through them, He will bless you beyond measure. This is not to say that you can just sit back and wait for it, it is to give you hope, to know that all you are working towards is waiting for you and you will have it. Not Now but Soon. So quit looking at what others are doing, having, etc. and get about your business. Don't you have some work to do? Keep it Moving 

Hungry for something? Feed your Spirit!!

    Hey Monsters, miss me? I missed you. Just wanted to give you some time to work on your truth. It is hard work dealing with yourself. A lot of heavy lifting, examining, and cleaning. Enough to make you want to sleep  just thinking about it. I don't know about you but when I have a large project to do I throw on some music and attack that project head on. I tear apart the entire space and put it back together again. A few hours and your done.  It is not that way when your working on yourself. You need to stop and take breaks. Emotional baggage is difficult to clean up, sort through, and deal with. Some people take to keeping a journal, or spend hours meditating and doing yoga, others sift through their physical past and relive each moment. Whatever you choose to do it is not easy. It is draining. If it was easy most of the people walking around today would not have so many issues and thousands of therapists, counselors, and life coaches would be out of work. Come to think of it, I would have nothing to write about. Good thing for me, you, monster have issues. Even better news is your willing and able to work them out.

 So what do you need to refuel with when your working on your mind and spirit? I am glad you asked. You need to feed your spirit with spirit! Yup, just like with exercise you need to fuel your physical body to get optimum results, the same goes for your spirit. No cheating, no filling up on junk food. You got to get the good stuff. You, monster are going to have to tap into the wisdom of the ages, starting with your Bible! Yup I said it, The Bible. If you are even the least bit intimidated by it start in Psalms, nothing but praise to the Almighty in every one! ( It is a good place to start if you want to learn how to pray too. There has been many a day when I just read one Psalm and meditate on it for the rest of the day. It's good stuff. Some more food for your spirit, read inspirational stories of women you admire, go to the library and check out books from Iyanla Vanzant, Joyce Meyer, T.D. Jakes, Creflo Dollar, Paula White, Joel Olsteen, the list is endless, just hang out in the Christian section and I guarantee you will find something that will call to you. It is calling to your spirit! Feed your spirit.

Daily life is constantly draining from you, people, work, children, life. They all take from you. It is important to set aside some time each day to refill. You are no fun when your drained, you lack vitality, energy, love, and patience. Life becomes a trial instead of a joy. When your spirit is on E, you are not good for anyone let alone yourself. So next time you have that empty feeling inside, that gnawing ache that is not filled with food or water, listen to it. It is your spirit asking for a snack. Well don't just sit there fill it up .

Just because it's a fact...doesn't mean it's true

     Happy Monday monsters. Did you know that the more blogs you read the smarter you get?  Also, if you are a single woman in her mid to late 30's you are more likely to never have a child. Did you know that there is a shortage of men, and that 60% of women will never get married? Hey, did you hear that 59% of children that grow up in single family homes will be more likely to raise their own children in a single parent home? Did you know that 57% of African American men admitted to actively seeking a woman of another culture/ethnicity to marry?  Shockingly 67% of black women will not ever marry regardless of age or economic status, and that these same women are more likely to have children out of wedlock?
     67% of men say that they have cheated on their partner. In a recent survey white women were considered the most desirable in a marriage partner, with Asian making a close second, followed by Hispanic, Other, Mixed race and Black coming in last. A recent "study" found that overweight women are more likely to be single, short men prefer taller women, and a man regardless of his looks, weight or height will have a better chance of marrying if he makes six figures or more. On the contrary a woman making six figures or more, no matter how beautiful she may be, will either have to settle or be single.  Or how about this one, 48% of all the people reading this blog believe at least one of the above stated "facts" is true.

       Sorry to disappoint you but most of what is stated above I just made up. Not off the top of my head or anything just purely based on the random opinions and unscientific polls that are conducted in women's magazines, online surveys, and random overheard conversations that women have on a regular basis. You can come up with a statistic on just about anything, and most people will believe it. Hey who can argue with math? I barely passed my statistics class but I know that you can slant your results by polling a targeted group versus a totally random one. I am just saying, you can make a fact about pretty much anything, it just doesn't make it the truth.

    While you have been busy cleaning out your life and your mind you have found that you have more room, some empty space waiting to be filled. Be careful monster an empty space is still a place. A place where you begin storing stuff. Thoughts, ideas, facts, experiences. In the Between you need to be vigilant about guarding these now clean and empty spaces. You need to be careful about what you allow to take up this space. We all plan to only fill our lives with things that edify us. That teach us a better way to live, to think, to act etc. Your main source should be your Bible, but realistically we fill those spaces with things that look good, like self help books, random advice, talk shows and magazine articles. Hey we are working on ourselves after all I told you to read, to learn and to grow. Yes I did. I neglected to tell you to edit and filter what you  are putting in yourself. I am sorry. It was only Revealed to me on my daily torture session, oops I mean exercise session.

   Just because something may be a "fact" does not make it true. Our media is meant to inform us, but mostly it circulates fears and insecurities. It sells millions of copies  each month selling fear. Are you eating the right things, wearing the right things, do you measure up to the beautiful images of women between its covers, do you know how to keep your man satisfied, Do you know how to get the right job, apartment, man?
 The list goes on and on. Worse they put out polls on nearly everything. My question is who are they asking? Where are they getting their facts, and what does it have to do with the truth?

Don't throw them out, you do not have to quit reading them, you don't have to turn off your talk shows, but you do need to quit having a steady diet of them. Most importantly you need to filter any and all information you may get from them. This is what it looks like.

     On one of my jogs I saw an attractive man walking by. He smiled and kept going and out of nowhere all these thoughts bombarded me. Thoughts that went a lot like this. "Hmmm, I am over 30, everybody knows that as you get older it is harder to date. Maybe  I was too fat, guys don't like women with too many curves. Yeah I am a single mom guys don't want to have to raise a kid that is not his. (how he could possibly know that I was a mom did not even enter into my thoughts.), I am not even on his radar, He probably doesn't like black women. And a whole lot of other mess that I will not share with you. In reality the guy probably never gave me another thought as he went past, while I was beating my self up with all the facts I had gleaned from media and other misinformed women. Lucky for me I tripped. While I was physically tripping, the Holy Spirit informed me that I was mentally tripping and to cut it out immediately.

So I cut it out. I told myself out loud the truth. The Truth is I am a Child of the Most High God. That I am fine just the way I am. That it does not matter what man says about me. That I am fearfully and wondrously made, that God has a plan for me, that He knows the desires of my heart.  That all these "facts" were not the Truth. That I needed to have a better filter on the things I allowed into my mind. I also knew that I had to examine each of these "facts" find their source and eliminate them. So I rarely watch talk shows, I turn off all those reality shows that show women as mistreated, spoiled, chronically single, over dramatic, unloved and unlovable. Yup I had to clean out my Tivo. More importantly I had to discard these "facts" and find the Truth about me.

   As long as you hold on to the "facts" you cannot know the truth. So monster today, examine all the "facts" about yourself and your situation and figure out if they are the Truth. I can guarantee that most of the '"facts" you believe about yourself are not true at all. Throw them out. After all everybody knows the Truth will set you free.

Be free monster, be free.

Be Still.....

      Shabbat, ( no I did not sneeze). Shabbat is the traditional Jewish Sabbath it begins on Friday evening and ends Saturday evening. During this Holy time the Jewish people acknowledge the fruits and gifts of God.  They take time to have a meal with their family, they offer up prayers and thanksgiving. They turn off the world, work, t.v. etc and they rest.

I am not Jewish, but I can appreciate this holy ritual. A time set apart from your daily life to be still. Purposefully still. So this blog will be the shortest one yet. Today Be Still. I know it is Friday, you usually hang out with friends, hit the club, do something. Take a day off. Today be still. Turn off all the electronics, turn off all your plans and plots. Put away your vision paper. Be still and take in the world around you. Spend time in God's presence. Share a meal with your family. Whatever you choose to do praise God in all things, have a spirit of gratitude. By Saturday evening you will be refreshed and re-energized to begin your journey again.
           I have to go get my world in order so that I can be still. See you next week.

Fuggedaboudit....Forgive them, all of them

       Hope your loving your Wednesday monsters. I am about to go dance in the rain. Yup that is how I get my joy on. Don't forget that today is the day to get your joy on too. So Dance, but not yet, read this first, then dance. So please excuse the liberty that I have taken with my spelling. In other words I am asking for your forgiveness. That was easy. Most of the time it is not. It is hard to admit when you were wrong, doubly  so when you feel that you are not wrong.
        Forgiveness is a funny creature. There are some situations where it readily appears, like forgiving me my spelling mistakes. There are other situations where finding it is near impossible, like in the case of a broken heart, or a betrayal of trust. It is even harder to forgive when it is not really an action but perhaps a conduct or behavior or word that has given you offense. While you are in your Between time you have been cleaning out your stuff. Looking at the past and the people in it. You have probably found some situations and some people that you have been offended by. I know I have. I have probably even held a grudge. Or two. O.k. maybe a dozen or so. Well what do you do? Some of these things happened long ago, maybe you don't even know where the offender is, or perhaps you told them you forgave them already, even though a small kernel of unforgiveness lives in your heart. What then? Is it really a big deal, after all its the past and the past cannot hurt you, right?

The past may not be able to reach out and slap you, but it will hinder you from moving into the Next. That little piece of unresolved issue can grow into a huge pile of unresolved issues. It will affect how you deal with future similar situations, it will affect how you treat people, it will poison your relationships and it will open up the floodgates that will water the bitterness you have been so successful in rooting out. So, yeah it is a big deal.

Forgiveness is not about the other person. It is about you. Chances are they don't even know or care that they have hurt or offended you. They are not losing any sleep and skipping happily along with their life. Unaware and most likely totally oblivious to your pain. Nope, monster it is not for them it is for you. You are going to have to dig deep for this one. It is going to take some work and it may not happen over night, but if you are active, willing, and loving enough it will happen . You must forgive everyone and everything that has caused you to be in the Between, this includes yourself. You are going to have reach in deep and be truly honest. Your decisions, choices, and actions are what got you here. Forgive yourself. Embrace yourself, love yourself , take the lesson the universe is showing you and then forgive yourself. This part is easy. Well kind of easy, on to the heavy lifting.

Take a breath and go back to each situation where you have been hurt or offended by someone else. It doesn't matter if you were close to them or if it was the guy who took your parking spot, or the last seat on the bus. Picture them in your head, smile and forgive them. Then let it go. For people who you love/loved this may take several tries. You will have to check in every once in awhile with your feelings to make sure that you have truly forgiven them. Why is this important? Because sweet one, you will continue to draw the same type of situations and people into your life that will mirror the hurt and pain until you deal with it. Talk about Deja Vu.

What does this look like. We will use an easy example. Men. You are looking back on all your past relationships and you start to see a pattern, All the men you date have the same physical attributes, same type of personality, same type of vibe about them. That could just be chalked up to what you like, so let's dig deeper. As you look at all your relationships they all seem to have been emotionally or physically unavailable. Maybe it was physical distance, maybe they worked or traveled, perhaps they were still involved with someone else. Doesn't matter. Now you have located the problem, you have seen how with hindsight all of them were doomed to fail. Well here is where forgiveness comes in. Forgive them for being who they were and forgive yourself for picking them. Let it go. Now you can see that type coming and avoid them, lesson learned. Or, you can claim to be over it, and keep repeating the cycle over and over again. God will allow you to repeat this lesson as many times as it takes. Let it go. Forgive all of them. Write their names on a piece of paper and throw it in a lake, rip it up and scatter it. Let them go, thank them for the lesson and move on.

Be aware that once you have done this the Universe will test you. I will put you in situations that are similar it will send you people who remind you of. _____________, it will try to trick you and test you. You might fail. No, you will fail, first time out, after that it is cake, you will be able to laugh about it and recognize the next one instantly! lesson learned. You must practice this daily. Forgive them.

The most important reason to forgive is that in the Bible it clearly states they we are forgiven. As undeserving as we may be God is able and willing to forgive us. It also says that if we harbor any unforgiveness in our hearts that God will not forgive us. (Matt.6:14-15) You got to give, to get monster. Do not block your blessings and your prayers over petty man-made mess. Forgive and let go.  Now you get to work on that, I have to go out and sing in the rain. Save some time for your joy!

Hush your mouth....Keep It To Yourself Sweetie

Happy Tuesday Monsters, my the days are flying by. Time seems to be on fast forward when you have things to do in the Between. I did not even notice the days passing in the Before. I could spend hours doing absolutely nothing at all. Oh well you may have found that all the time that you have been spending alone, has given you a whole new outlook on life. You have been reading your Bible, self help books, inspirational posters, and cruising the online shoe shopping options. ( Well I have been doing that) In the course of all this work you have been doing on yourself you have had some AHA moments. I hope you have. You are learning more about yourself, you are learning about others and you have immersed yourself in Wisdom.

    If you have been spending anytime at all with your thoughts God has revealed some Truths to you. Life changing, soul shaking, healing truths. You are excited. You have found a fount of wisdom you can see clearly. You can breathe freely, laugh loudly, and you want to share all that you have learned. It is so tempting to share all that your learning, all your revelations about yourself, relationships, your job, motherhood whatever it is you have been working on. You can't wait to tell all your girls all the things you have learned about men and relationships, you want to snatch the Coke bottle out of the three year old's mouth, only its not your three year old. You want to practice your new interview skills out on everyone you meet. Sweetie you are excited. You are ready to share. Don't

It is called a Revelation for a reason. God has revealed something formally hidden to you. For your benefit. It  is best to keep it to yourself. Unless you have been given the Grace, and Direction to share it.(This is why it is so important to spend time alone. To learn your voice, God's Voice, and that voice that creeps in to steer you wrong.) I am trying to save you some hurt feelings. I didn't start this blog until now because I didn't feel the Urge to share while I was going through. It was revealed to me by a loving sister that perhaps it would be good to share my story.  Even though it wasn't a burning bush, her suggestion felt right in my spirit, so here I am writing and hopefully your still reading.  Let me reveal to you why you should keep mum.

Nobody wants to hear it! Yup I said it. The Truth may set you free, but it will alienate your friends. I know you mean well, I know they may have asked for advice, but really they don't want it. They want you to agree with them. Truth is worthless if a person is not ready to accept it. Remember that episode on Sex In The City  when Miranda went around town telling women that the guy they were complaining about "was just not that into you". Well she was all excited about her new found truth but the women she shared it with...not so much. This is how your friends feel when they come to you with a problem and you give them the Truth. They know the facts of a situation, they may want a solution, but perhaps the truth may be a little much for them to deal with. After all it is your revelation. Not theirs.

Another reason you may want to keep silent is that in the Between you are in a raw state. Everything about you has been stripped away, to be replaced, cleaned, or thrown away. You have not yet learned how to take the truths you have been blessed with and deliver them gently. You just want to blurt them out, after all they are profound, soul shaking, and life changing. Your audience, however, is not in the same place as you. Your loving attempt at sharing what your learning can come off as callous and insensitive. Thus keep it to yourself.

The final reason to keep your mouth shut is that the majority of people you may share this Truth with are simply not able or in a place to receive it. Remember not that long ago, you were not in a place to receive it so have a little empathy. Still feel the urge to share, read proverbs. I love you guys and I am done for the day it is almost 100 out here I am going to the pool, and that monster is the Truth.

Be the Blessing

Happy Monday Monsters, I hope you enjoyed your weekend and took a day to play, to breathe and to laugh. The first lesson you will learn in the Between is patience. Your looking toward the Next, cleaning out your Past, working out your Between and hopefully you are not waiting around for a Blessing. You, monster, are already experiencing blessings. Your learning, your growing and when you stop and breathe you see all the blessings around you. You are covered in blessings, and in the Next you will be over run with them. In the Between you learn to see the simple blessings God provides daily. You might not have what you want, but God will always provide what you need. I have learned that the quickest way to experience the Blessing you have been praying for is to be the Blessing: in someone else's life. 


That's right. I am dragging you out of your closet, your hidden space where you are working on you to encourage you to be a Blessing. In the Between you will be tempted to hold on to what you have. To keep your things close, after all you have control over your material things. Your time is precious, you have things to do, jobs to apply to, a child to raise, a job to get to, a relationship to develop, this could be an endless list of things you need for you. Well as long as you focus on you, the Blessing your waiting for will continue to wait on you. Its not a typo it is the truth. God has already answered your prayer. Everything you have asked for is waiting for you, you have to get past you to get it. How do you do that? Be a Blessing.


This is what it looks like. You have been praying for a breakthrough, for a man, a house, clothes, food. I don't know what your praying for but it is time to get off your knees and get to work. The Word says that God will bless the works of your hands, well if your hands are not doing anything what is there to bless? All your prayers have been about what you need, what you want, what you can't do without, etc. Once again you have entered Self-ishness. Move away from Self and focus on Others. 

I am not bragging, I am sharing hopefully something in this will inspire you to be a Blessing. I do not have a job, instead of sitting around waiting for the phone to ring I volunteer. I counsel teen moms. I put all the focus into it that I would my career. As a result I am able to bring joy and love into other peoples lives. Since I am not working I cannot fill my desire to shop. I know sad right. I clean out my closet and my daughters closet and clothes every few months and donate them to Goodwill. Our closets are overflowing with clothes, and I have not shopped in years. Each month I take bags of food to the food pantry and our kitchen is overflowing with food. We can't eat it fast enough. My mom loves to garden but does not have the time. I get down and dirty in her garden and it is overflowing with flowers, fruit, we had so many tomatoes we were giving bags of them away! I live in my mother's home, like a visitor for months until God revealed to me that I was praying for a home and I had one. I got up and now I clean my mother's home, take care of her animals, fix her meals all the things I would do for a husband and I realized I was in training for the life I said I wanted, but for her I was the Blessing she was praying for. For the women I counsel, I am the help they have been praying for. For the ones who benefit from my clothing and food I am the Blessing they have been praying for. In Blessing others with the little I had, with the works of my hands God has blessed me in abundance.

I am not telling you to give something to get something, but I am sharing with you that if you will bless others God will bless you. So to steal from Barack's last campaign. Change. Be the change you want to see in your life.  So today monster go be a blessing, you can start by smiling at every one you meet. That smile you give may be the one thing that changes their day for the better. Be the Blessing.

Breathe, Live and Laugh

     Morning monsters. They say that the best writers are often the ones who are the worst people persons. They hide away being all creative, shun their loved ones, and lived tortured beautiful lives in their minds thus producing great masterpieces. Masterpieces that we are then forced to read and write about in high school and if you go to college they force more of it down your throat so you can really appreciate Literature. Did you know that a large percentage of those great writers died either from suicide, drug abuse, or a tragic illness. All of them died without ever knowing that 16 year old students across the globe would be forced to dissect their writing for every morsel of meaning. Why am I telling you this? Its a warning. Don't shut yourself away during the Between.

    Yes, you will find that you have more time to yourself. Yes, a lot of voices will be silenced while you and God are working on you. Yes, your tired, your dealing with some things, you have issues but don't shut yourself away. Wherever you are, even if your in a place you don't like you have to live. God has removed people from your life, mainly the ones that were not speaking good into it. He has removed the ones whose voices you always turned to for advice, only so that you can turn to Him. He has removed others who may be in a Between situation themselves. But monster, you are not alone. God will also bring new voices into your life. New people will pop up to make your journey easier. You will be tempted to ignore them, to shy away from them because right now you are a mess, don't. These are divine connections.

   God did not make us to be alone. When we are alone we only focus on Self. When we focus on Self we become self-ish, self-centered, self- concerned, self-pitying, self-absorbed. When we focus on others we become more like Jesus.  When you stop looking at your self you can see others. You can fill a need, offer help, give love and support, bless another. By reaching out and living, getting to know the new people God is sending into your life, you can heal you. God knows the deeper issues that you are working on. He knows the insecurities you are feeling. He knows you have trust issues, abandonment issues, love issues, selfish issues, shallow issues, to the point He knows your issues. He has sent these people into your life to help you deal with those issues. They might not be a therapist (even though you may clearly need one) but they will help you, through friendship, to get over those issues. God is awesome.

So I know it is hard, all your junk has been pulled from the closet and you are working on your mess, but take a break. Breathe, and more importantly live now, so that when you get to the Next you have a new friend to take with you.

I gotta go, I have a play date. Enjoy your weekend.

Resurrection: Its Not Just For Easter

Good Morning, monsters. Hope you enjoyed your holiday. How did the soul searching go? Did you get that bitter taste out of your mouth, more importantly did you begin to root it out of your soul. I know its difficult, I warned you that it was a tricky, sneaky thing. It may take awhile to get its tendrils out of the nooks and crannies of your soul, but keep at it. I am constantly walking around with a bottle of Round-Up, squirting every nasty tendril that pops its head up. Every day I am hacking away at that root. Writing this is killing the bitterness, every key stroke is making it weaker and soon, it will be all gone.

On to today's topic. Congratulations graduate you have left the Before. You've put away all your exes, you have stopped the back in the day episodes, and you have retired from your party planning career. Now what? If your anything like me, your shocked. For the first time you are awake, and the light is blinding. You look around and realize you have been living in a bubble, life has gone on merrily around you and your having a bad hair day, your wearing ugly sweats, and you can give a detailed recap of every bad reality show on television. Don't go back into hiding! Shake it off. Get up get out of those nasty sweats, do a mini makeover, and face the day. Really face it.

When I finally came to myself I was shocked. I was chilling on the couch eating chips, watching some inane woman making a fool of herself on national T.V.  and I caught my reflection. I had become a couch potato. Me! I hadn't rocked heels in a year, my poor babies were locked away in boxes, and what was I wearing, pajamas at 3 in the afternoon? My nails were not done, my legs not shaved, and I was rocking my natural hair color. This had gone too far. Your wake up may not look like this but its still a wake up you begin to take notice of what your doing, eating wearing, you notice your surroundings, congratulations baby you are awake. Today is your Resurrection Day.

So what does this mean? It means you are no longer distracted by what you lost, you've stopped all the distractions, you have begun working on your bitterness and suddenly you have become aware of yourself. This is a strange moment. Now that your not looking back, you can look forward and all you see are possibilities. The whole world has opened up to you, its like you have not been breathing and you can finally fill your lungs. You get off that couch, march into the bathroom and reclaim you.  This post is going to be short. Today you are going to be so excited about you that this blog is just blocking you from saying hello to you. So monster go do it. Change your hair, put on some make up, go sit in the sun. Today is the first day of your new life. Get to It. Because after today we step into the In Between. Enjoy your day